Its only four am

I dont know how to make a decision, so Im choosing not to think anymore.

He’s so lonely, with no woman by his side and a tainted heart from all the crazy ones he’s gone through before. The most kindhearted man in the world can’t even share some of it with another because he is tired. Worn out from trying so hard.

All I want is for him to enjoy himself and be able to gain the ability to love another just as much as he loves me. May not be possible though because I don’t think anyone can love a human as he loves me. It hurts me just to write this, knowing he is at home alone and drinking whiskey. I don’t want him to die or even worse, die alone. To die without a lover is the loneliest way to go out.

Tears always bundle up in my eyes when I think of my father. The greatest man to ever step foot on this Earth. He supports me through school, living, and even boy issues. He would sacrifice his entire life for me. I hate being so far away from him. He needs me and I need him. We’re each other’s support group, cheerleader, and best friend.

There is no love greater than the one between a father and daughter. It’s priceless and it’s nothing you can keep in a box for safe keeping. It’s one of the closest things to magic. 

I hate being in a dark place, but its really hard to get out of this one. Dammit…

Falling and falling and stopped before I hit the ground. Im floating my way back up now. Back to the way it was without you. Back to dreaming of someone like you to come along and let me fall for once. I just lost the greatest thing to ever cross my path. 

Life begins, life is lived, and life is gone. I’d would rather lead my life with my heart in chaos than dwell in my brain of thoughts. Theres too many shades under every color. Just remember to love them before the night ends just as much as you did when the morning began.